Patuloy na umaalingaw-ngaw sa luob ng silid ang mga sigaw na walang patid n’yang naririnig. Umaaligid muli ang mga iniiwasang sandali sa kanyang buhay. Nagkukubli sa aninong nais n’yang pakawalan.

“Ayoko na!”, isang sigaw mula sa kanyang paos nang lalamunan. “Tama na! Hindi ko na kaya!”, iyon na lamang ang namumutawi sa kanyang mga labi.

Kumaripas s’ya nang takbo palayo sa kanyang silid. Ngunit saan s’ya dadalhin ng kanyang mga paa? Ano ba ang pilit n’yang tinatakasan? Maraming katanungan na sa kanyang sarili ay walang tiyak na kasagutan. Maging s’ya ay nagugulumihanan sa katotohanang walang saysay ang kanyang paghinga sa mundong kinalakhan.

Tumigil siya panandali sa pagtakbo. Nanaghoy ng pagmamaka-awa. Pinuno ng mga luha ang kanyang mata. At sa sandaling yaon, napagtanto n’ya na may paraan pa upang wakasan ang magulong kinahinatnan ng kanyang katauhan. Bumalik siya sa madilim na silid bitbit ang isang pisi at ang silya na kanyang magiging daan para sa katahimikan. Handa na siyang humarap sa madilim na nakaraan at sa huling pagkakatao’y muling talikuran magpakailanman.

Hindi man malinaw sa lahat ang mga kadahilanan, isang liham na lamang ang kanyang iniwan na nagsasaad ng pamamaalam.

The voices never stop filling the room as it echoes and cripples his ears. Moments that he never wanted to come by has once again surrounds him. He could only hide in the shadow that he wanted to set free.

“I don’t want anymore!” He shouts with his shivering voice. “Stop it! I can take it no more!” Those are the only words his lips can say.

He ran as fast as he could, away from his room. But where will his feet take him? What is he running away from? Questions that he never knew the exact answers. He is confused and delirious that his reality has no sense in the world he had grown as to be who he is.

Suddenly, he stopped running. He mourns for mercy. Tears occupied his eyes as it rolls down freely. In that moment, he had realized that there is still a way to end the misery that has been hunting him. He went back to his room. He carried a rope and a chair that will lead him to serenity. He has the courage to face his dark past and for the last time to turn his back forever.

His well kept reasons might not be clear at all. He just left a letter that bids farewell to the world he once own.